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ohhhhh shit.

this would happen today.

what should have been a good monday,

happened to top the list of worst mondays I have EVER had.

Second Semester

Well, just to join in with every else, I am going to blog about second semester.

And to be honest there is not one part about me that is excited. Not even an ounce. I do not want to think about the future, starting all over again, growing up over night. That is not just me. I need another year or two of where am I. I am so happy. Yeah school is hard, family things can suck sometimes, and my health me be a downward spiral going very fast, but I guess that stuff has made me what I am today, happy ( in a weird way). So back to being scared, because that is all i am. Why try to fix something if it is not broken? I do not know what to do. I am not a dweller, but I will over think this tonight. But tomorrow I will move on.

I need to come up with a bucket list for things to do.

Well, that is all the ranting I have in me for today.

This will not be the end of me.

I will not let any of this be the end of me.

I will not let you or you or this or that take me down.

I am and always will be a fighter.

I will fight to the end here, but the end is nearing so. And i am not seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.

But today I had the realization that everything happens for a reason, so if I happen to lose this battle, I will not give up.

Because, is it worth living if you are not fighting?

This I believe...

I must write an essay on that for english.... And I wish I could be truthful. However my grade depends on it, and I truly cannot explain the things I am most passionate about. So I will sit at my state at some okay paper. I do believe what I write about, but I wish I could love it. However because my writing skills are just sub-par, I must bite the bullet and write about a good experience. Once I get started I will like it, but I cannot find a topic to write my final paper.

My last day of break.

As I sat watching my favorite team...the bears of course. I sit here and think about how this is my last day of winter break. I must say it was fun, but not long enough. I just need one more week to completely recharge. But that is not happening, so I will sit here today and do nothing. I am not going to change out of my PJ's. I am just going to relax today, I will do a bit of homework here and there. However I am not going to stress out. School is my life, but I am not going to let it get to me right now! Tomorrow I will start again, but today is my day. I will sit in my Pj's and watch football, and I will have myself a great day.