And this is how I now live. I say little to none about what is going on and when ask, I give some fake answer. And I don't know why! I truly believe if I do not talk of them... they will vanish! but no they like to just keep coming. and I just keep crying about it. I wish I could say this was my rant, but it is my new reality. I sucks to think about, but maybe I need to take sometime to my self and think. I don't where to go from here. I am going to keep busy, and keep my smile on cause there is nothing I can do....but maybe you can help. Well yeah.. Where to begin with winter break, so far.. it has been great! today I had a ton of fun! I love all my friends.. and I hope they all had fun as well. I could sit and list every fun thing I am looking forward too this break.. but that would break the rules of my blog. This is my rant place, I can bitch about what ever and you still listen. And that is why I love it! So, back to my point. Break has been great. I have been seeing all my lovely friends, and just living life, cause that is what i love to do! But also in the past couple of days, every dream of my has been crushed. Into a ball, thrown out the window, stepped on, and but. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. What in life have a worked for. Why have I tried? What is my point? Do you really even care? I know I have forgotten about you, and said/did things I was not suppose to, but please! Help me out here! I really need your guidance! And I miss you. A lot. our talks and just the way things were. But no point in dwelling on the past. When there are things & people that ruin every single part of your future! What is my point anymore? Who really cares?
My friends all made fun of me for having a quote as my background: "I like to pretend that everything is alright. Because when everyone else thinks you're fine, you forget for a while that you're not"
And this is how I now live. I say little to none about what is going on and when ask, I give some fake answer. And I don't know why! I truly believe if I do not talk of them... they will vanish! but no, they like to just keep coming. and I just keep crying about it. I wish I could say this was my rant, but it is my new reality. I sucks to think about, but maybe I need to take sometime to myself and think. I don't where to go from here. I am going to keep busy, and keep my smile on cause there is nothing I can do....but maybe you can help.
To end on a lighter note I am very excited for the following days to come! I have so many exciting things and I will keep taking it day at a time!
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