This is a day for the books

Well today was a very interesting day.
My brother called me out from study hall lunch and Spanish
We went out to lunch, sat and talked about colleges, then on the way back to school I suggested that we go bowling. We were right at the lanes. So of we went. Doing something like that was so fun. Just he and I having fun, and just being. We played two games. The first one I won by one pin and the second one I crushed him. And let me tell you I have beat him. All my life he has won, just cause he was older then me and a boy. I never let this bother me, but today I got to rub it in his face that I won!!! I just love doing totally random things with my brother.
On a completely different note.....
"this is a day for the books" is generally known as a good day, but that wa not the case for me. Tonight, 10/18/10, I competly lost it and this is the first time it has ever happened. I realized everything is getting messed up from this dumb EF. I just can't get my mind off it, and my grades are reflecting it. So tonight I just lost it. Screaming, yelling, running, swearing, slamming doors, stomping my feet, I had my first true melt down because of EF. Yes I have cried to a few friends before and talked with a few people, but the state I was in tonight was scary.
So now battle number two beings. The mental battle.
I never thought I would have to fight this one, but I think that about a lot of things.
So as I continue my losing battle, of one year now, I start to add the second.
Who knows what this will entail, who knows what any of this will entail.
I could sit and bitch for hours about my EF, but I can't find words right now to put with it, so for now good night!