why??

today I went to visit my moms friends grave.
I went with another friends, and we looked around for 45 minutes.. and still could not find it.
So we went to get help. The lady working there was very helpful and told us right where it is.
So back we went, round two.
After more time of looking around, i thought i find out. But, there was no tomb stone to confirm it.
So, another nice employee came up and confirmed we had the right there.
There she was, no stone to identify her by; just a few pots of flowers.
And there she was, I did not know how to feel. She has been gone for 8 months now, but it seems like yesterday that i was at her house partying it up.

I miss you dearly, and i hope you are doing well. Your daughter is growing up into a beautiful young girl, learning some thing new everyday. Everyday she thinks of you wishing her mommy could come back. I can not feel her pain, but I want you to come back as well. I miss seeing you, always someone to make me laugh, and someone on my side. I miss you!!

That is what i wish i could say to you, but not today and hopefully not tomorrow, but someday we will meet again.

I am not exactly sure why i went to see the grave today, but it made me sad, but also thankful for what i have.
I LOVE YOU GRACIE AND MRS PLAMONDON!!

time is passing bye

I can not believe how fast this summer is going fast. summer school has been taking over my life,
But i am glad I did it cause next year is going to be crazy and i am going to need the time.
This summer so far has been a good summer, i have seen everyone built stronger friendships, and lost a few. But that happens with the end of school. i am still doing some college searching, but i am super scared about that. every time i think about it i freak my self out. it is something i try not to think about, but i know i must. and that makes me super sad.
and then summer flings.. ohh well. it happens. you can not win every battle.
Well i really dont have much to say, summer is chill and i am loving it!
I will update some time again.

P.s. I wonder if anyone is reading this?? are you out there?? i hope not.

summer.

be some time now from when i blogged, but i bring good news.
summer has been off to a good start. i am seeing different people, which is way more fun then hanging out with the same people.
i got my grades and i did REALLY well only one B. so my GPA is good.
I ROCKED my ACT which i am so happy about, cause i lost serious sleep over it.
Now i am in summer school, which is taking up some time; however i need to get it done.
well that is all for now.. its summer!!!!!