so close.

Where to begin.
Things are just so crazy right now, i just want it all to end. I feel the pressure is really on. I need to keep my grades up, but i am lacking the drive. I am hoping that I can kick it into high gear and get things done. It is really essential that I do that. On the other hand i am really stressing about this summer. I would really like to find a job and i am having so much trouble doing that. I just pray that i find one, but if I don't I know god has a plan for me this summer. Soccer just ended and i am very sad to see it end. It was so much fun. I enjoyed going to practice everyday and playing the game. Our final record was 13-1-1. We were un defeated until the last two, but oh well it happens. I am really looking forward to next year because it will be a lot of fun. But as school comes to an end i start a new chapter of my life. well actually many new ones. But one major one is my Chicago marathon stuff. I really need to start running a lot, so i can get in shape and finish that bad boy. well that is all for now, time to go study and crank out some awesome grades!!!

ohh just one more thing cause its on my mind. well he is on my mind. Some days I think yes and others days I think no. I have no idea where he stands on this, but do I really want to know?

-I am not sure why i write, I don't know if anyone is reading. But i kind of like that. i can be my true self and not have to worry about people judging me. I actually really like that.