where are you?

i sit on my computer looking at a black screen. i go to facebook and kill time. i do nothing. i have things to do. homework sleep be social, study. i have a never ending list, that keeps getting longer and longer cause i do nothing about it. i see my grades start to slips, but i have nothing inside me to make me care. i know colleges care. and i really care about that. but i have no fire or drive. i need a pick me a up. a major. i pray to god, and he listens but i am not sure if he takes action. maybe i need to pray to him more often. spring break is coming soon, maybe after that i will have a energy to pull through the rest of the year. I need some FIRE. please help me find it. where are you?

moday.

ahh.. today was a long day.
i hate to wake up at 5:21 which is very early for me. i had morning soccer. and it was just okay. could have been better or worse.
but after that i went and saw my ACT tutor. i think she is helping a lot. which is good and i really need that. so by thinking she is helping it put me in a really good mood!!!!

Procrastinating

i wish i could stop procrastinating. That is all i ever do on sundays and i wish i could be productive. i have things to do just no drive to do them? someone help me. i feel like nothing is working.

and if you could not tell from the colors. right now i really want to go to university of illinois for college. i really hope i can get in there!!!

SURPRISE!!!!

Today i am going to a surprise birthday party for my friend! i am really excited! Alot of the people going i have not seen in a really long time, and i want to reunite with them. (reunite. what a fun word) I am a little nervous though because I have not seen some of these people in a really long time. I need to find something to wear and i need to Finish my ACT homework. Oh how i love the ACT. It is just great, i have books beyond books, and one heack of an expensive tutor. I really want my score to go up, and i hope she helps!!!!

Today my brother sat and yelled for not having good enough grades in school, and he said I will not go to college. Everyday i sit and think will i go to the college that i want. Am i smarter enough to get in??? and when people bring it up i just get more upset and get more down on my self.

I hope everything works out.

Welcome to my life.

Welcome to my life.
Hi my name is lindsey. i just created this blog today. many of my friends have them, so i decided i would try it. Speaking of my friends, i hope they do not see this. ( and if they do. i don't want to know)
So you may ask, why did you make this blog?
and i can tell you. i made this blog to document the rest of my time here. i don't know how long it will be, but i figured this would be a fun way to make is last.
I always have questions running though my mind, and i will probably pot many of them here.
i hope you enjoy( for whom ever is reading)!!!!!!