Effort

It amazes me what a little effort can do. Recently, I have been getting very down about a certain thing, and a feeling that I do not belong there. However all it takes is sending a few text to fix the problem. They know just what to say to make me feel welcome there! I am so grateful I get to be part of something like this!!

Every time

I only blog when I get upset, so tonight I sit here. Upset.

Not too sure why. I knew, just knew, I would get to involved and end up here.

I tried really hard not to let this happen, and by not letting it happen, I got here. Where I would have been either way.

Well yeah... everything happens for a reason.

What does not kill you, is what makes you strong!

Sometimes...

I am a HUGE believer that everything happens for a reason, and when I mean everything I truly mean it.

I had a bit of a rough week with my grades, but I am going to study super hard to fix those.

But that is not the only reason why this week was tough.

I am not going to sit here and write about it, because I do not want pity about it, I write today for my own good.

I do not have the friends or family around me that I use to.. this is about the only thing that seems like home! I just write away and for some reason everything seems to be better.

writing is my escape from everything, letting me and my crazy self be.

I'll will be back later, but that is all for right now.

And I will leave with, everything happens for a reason. No matter how big or how small, there was a reason for it.

not again.

What have I gotten myself into this time.

I got all caught up in the I want to cool college life, and lost everything that I stand for.

Lord I ask for you right now, to stand up and show me the way.

On a happier note, only a few more weeks until I get to see everyone. :]

I MISS...

I wish I had time to post in this blog.. this was the only place where I could rant and range about anything, but now i feel i am just to busy.

However, I shouldn't be too busy. I do not play a sport, I am only taking 12 hours and I am involved in nothing and my grades still suck.. what is my life coming to.

lord please come back and lead me in the right direction, I am lost without you.

monday..

Its back to square one.. or maybe 2.5

Its back to many long drives

Its back to many child-filled waiting rooms.

Its back to yelling at the IC.

Its back to where I thought I left

.......................

smile.

That facebook photo album never fails to make me smile.

There is not a sad face in a photo, Everyone is just enjoying life. We are all so happy, just happy to be.

And that is what I love the most. Around them, life is free, be who you are. There is no judging.

As I sit here and think, I have decided I will miss this gym class the most at central. I can text my friends, email my teachers, and facebook everyone else. But these kids do not have a twitter and a cell phone.. All they have is us.

This is not a gym class to me, its a family.

But a family with no problems, just laughing

145 everyday is my safe haven.. not sure what I am going to do without each and everyone of you.